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seeya [15 Jun 2006|01:10pm]
No internet!  Currently , this is permanent, so I will only occasionally be on at friend's houses.  Sorry~
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[10 Jun 2006|05:10pm]
Hmmmmm <3

Saw The Omen last night with Icee.. Uhhh I liked it, actually screamed a little <3  I loveeee being scared during a movie.  SOO much.  Creepy little boy, I love him!  The first Grim was sexy too.  Too bad they used other dogs afterwards.  

Hmm uhhh my makeup is a bitch...tried to just put the powdercream on my eyelids and arggggh just HAD to smear like EVERYWHERE and it doesn't come off </3

So I improvised....

SOLIKE, I totally can't wait to get my hair done.  The streak color is gonna be somewhere between burgandy and hot pink <3333  Gonna be done somekinda like Ruki's pinknblack stuff :O

Hmm...SILLY GOD DISCO pv is SEX!!  I love it.  Ruki is totally lovin on his feather boa too ahahahah  They're all such dragwhores in that pv anyway...'cept Reita and Kai....

My initial fights with Puffin have been getting shorter lately!  He's figuring out that if he softens through transistions, I stop pulling on his reins <333  And just softens in general, I give soft reins.  He's a smart horse, just an ASS at the same time ahah  But there's something wrong with his left canter lead; he's all scared to do it.  So he has a break on cantering for now.  (Except jumping and stuff, he's fine for that)

OH YEAH!  So exciting, I installed the Japanese language pack on my computer finaaaaalllllly, so I can see kanji and stuff now <3  Instead of the silly boxes

Challenge #1 [30 May 2006|09:59pm]
Challenge (#1)
A dare to freewrite
(abstract, lyric/poetry, drabble/character drabble)

*drabble being a comprehensive short bit of prose that is “something,” revealing a little but not to the fullness of a oneshot. Often is taken “in medias res”—in the middle of things; also, no resolution, just ends 

Try to use prompts in a way that is unique 

*completely freewritten—no boundaries except style. Any genre, rating, may be fanfic (mostly applies to drabble) 

when it collides
catch a falling star
deeper blue
sleep on it
gasp for breath

On hold for next challenge:
we can dive 
drowning rain

*in a drabble, prompt should be the strongest theme/concept. If possible, prompt word(s) should be used somewhere significantly. 

*in anything else, same deal, although usually to lesser degrees 

*prompt may also be subtle and/or be abruptly brought to view at climax/end (drabble mostly) 

Above all, surprise me. Impress me. Suggest new prompts. Take a challenge <3

Due Monday <333 LOVEYA 

Ahaha, instead of keeping this as a MSWord document and updating it, now it's public for the friends involved!!  However, if anyone else wants to participate, gooo for it.  It's a pretty typical challenge.
And yes, I think I borrowed one or two from gazette_yaoi, sorry.  I thought they were gaze lyrics?
And there are a few diru phrases~ aha~

[19 May 2006|02:22pm]
What is your perspective of me? Using a candybar doll maker (http://elouai.com/doll-makers/new-dollmaker.php#aligntop) make a doll of me from what you remember of my looks and post it here in the comments. Once you've posted here, ask the same in your own journal and see what your friends think you look like!
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family values [16 May 2006|02:45pm]
Soooo Dir en grey's not coming to VA Beach. That's sad...but too bad because I'm NOT traveling for the Family Values tour. A freaking 30 minute set while Korn gets 2 hours? No thanks. *sigh*

However, I WILL travel for the Inward Scream tour if it comes overseas~

HMmm...my WTD didn't come today. Walmart said it would be here today! I'm complaining. >O

[02 May 2006|02:43pm]
001. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
002. I will respond by asking you five questions of a very intimate and creepily personal nature. Or not so creepy/personal.
003. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
004. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
005. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

From Chelsea!!!!! (way too happy today)

1. Would you rather date TROY or his sister? [ehehehe]
Okay, well, no. But probably Troy. More controllable. I don't know how to mute Megan.
2. What MaLoki character can you relate to the most andd why?
I totally havent seen maloki in so long. ToT Ummm...err....I want to say Fenrir, but I don't know why. Cute doggy u_u
3. Why is PE so... lame?
I don't know.... However, our teachers are so incompetent, it's not been so bad lately.
4. Wolfram/Yuuri or Conrad/Yuuri[ewz]?
Whyyyy do you ask me about animes I haven't watched in such a long time?! Wolfram/Yuuri....not that I've seen past episode 16 *SAD*
5. Coke or Pepsi?
Coke. Pepsi is grossss...I hate it u__u
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song meme [24 Apr 2006|12:32pm]
Wellll Icee did this and I thought it was funny....

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[13 Mar 2006|09:40pm]
uhhhhhh Puffin's lame

BUT I'M GONNA CLIP HIM TOMORROW! (That really doesn't relate at all but whatever)

I'm supposed to be competeing 3ft on Saturday =[ Maybe not....
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random meme [06 Mar 2006|09:52pm]
Lalala I don't even remember what's been happening lately. Here's a meme, stolen from Iceedears:

(Okay so I forgot how to make a cut, shut up)
First break-up: uhh never
First screenname: honestly...I don't remember...it's gone in any case
First self purchased album: NIL I think
First funeral: gramma's
First piercing/tattoo & age: Umm ears + 12 or 13 yrs?

Last cigarette: nevah
Last car ride: yesterday from the barn?
Last kiss: none really~
Last good cry: I cried~~ a week or two ago
Last library book(s): Mister Monday by Garth Nix
Last movie seen (in theater): Final Destination 3
Last beverage drank: Diet Coke
Last food consumed: Bread
Last phone call: Icee
Last Time Showered: mmlast night, about to in a little while
Last shoes worn: my slip ons
Last item bought: umm a halter for Puffin
Last annoyance: miscommunication
Last time wanting to die: after the row with Kael weeks ago
Last time scolded: uhh for making my mom spend lots of money at the tack store yesterday xD

Who are your best friends? Icee and Alisha for the most part, completely singled out for seniority
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yah
Do you do drugs?: no
What kind of shampoo do you use? VIVE! xD
What are you most scared of? getting Puffin hurt
What are you listening to right now? Garden by Dir en grey
Where do you want to get married? Somewhere pretty and surreal <3
What would you change about yourself? indecisiveness, cowardice

Colors: Blue, green, purple...
Food: okay okay, fruitthings. Almost anything. Especially citrus
Boy name: Zaphikiel, Raphael (OKAY, I'm eccentric)
Girl name: Gabriella
Subjects in school: AP human geography
Animals: horses, canines
Sports: eventing/horse trial
Perfume: ummm none

Given anyone a bath? horses/dogs
Bungee jumped? no :D
Made yourself throw up? Uh once, just because I got crying out of control so bad my gag reflex got triggered or something
Skinny dipped? nope
Ever been in love?: Yup
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? uh don't think so
Pictured your crush naked? WHY WOULD I ADMIT THAT HERE?! xD But no
Actually seen your crush naked? No..I think we've dressed in the same room before...
Lied? well duh
Fallen for a close friend? yeah
Been rejected? not really?
Rejected someone? yes u_u
Used someone? no
Done something you regret? yes

Clothes: jeans+oceana sweatshirt+ black shirt
Music: Postal Service right now
Annoyance: being tired, the late hour
Smell: I smell Puffin around me for some reason...? I haven't been today
Favorite band/artist: Dir en grey/The Gazette/Postal Service
Dvd in player: umm none?

You touched: my mom
Hugged: uh someone hugged me the other day....Victoria I think
You imed: Core kid
Imed you: Core kid
Called you: Icee
You called: Icee
Bought you flowers: Kimber :D

Kill: Kael
Slap: Core kid's friend/stalker Jon
Kiss: Icee <3 I have this odd urge to kiss her...hand. Shut up I'm odd D:

Coke or pepsi: COKE
Flowers or candy: Flowers; I like looking at them even when they're dying
Tall or short: either <3

In the morning I am: asleeeeep even if I'm technically awake
All I need is: a book or my horse or an internet connection
Love: my friends, my dear, my horse, my family
You dream of: oddly calm situations
Last person you danced with: Kimber in the car. Like Kyo. ... ...XD Shut up you know you dance to the DVDs too.
Worst question to ask: anything about Puffin. I'll never shut up
Who makes you laugh the most: Core kid usually
Who has a crush on you: iunno :D

Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: in an ambiguous way
Wish you were younger: nah

Of times I have had my heart broken: once r twice
Of hearts I have broken: perhaps one....
Of guys I've kissed: N-O-N-E

stadium jumping clinic [25 Feb 2006|09:41pm]

I can't believe Puffin and I did so well in the advanced class!!

He was so good! The only things we had EVER done before that we did today in the dressage portion was going on the bit (simpllllle), shoulder in, and we've done extended trot once. We extended and collected our trot and canter, and did this thinggg that I don't even know what it is and something else, I think

It was so awesome! I never got yelled at at all <3!!!! I love doing Phyllis Dawson clinics!! We didn't really jump that high and our jumping was like crap because Puffin learned the exercise and started anticipating it and got excited. Butttt I just really need to grow a brain or something, because all the mistakes were me not thinking xDDD

Mostly I got told to sit back, but that's okay. For a while she tried to get me to light a fire under his butt, but eventually he engaged himself anyway and got good movement going.


...I drank almost a FULL LITER of diet coke with caffiene today, can you tell?????

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dark long night [17 Feb 2006|05:32pm]
[mood| excited]
[music| Psycho le cemu - Roman Hikou]

Ahhh I'm so bad about writing these :D Wellll I made a new layout. Kai from Gazette! He's so cute~~ Uhh I actually just edited my old layout xD;;; *not a complicated person*

WELL my NIL CD came in the mail. I really like it~ The only disappointment is that I'll have to hack my PS2 into being region 0 or something so I can watch the DVD. I like Nausea & Shudder, Bath Room, and D.L.N. the best right now

Ummm....I played broom polo at lessons on Weds. It's the best game on horseback in the world.. xD; I went endurance riding yesterday since it was so warm too!


I might be going to the NYC Dir en grey concert next month! But it's 16+ and I won't be 16 until shortly after. Sooo if we think I can get in, then we'll try. I'm excited and nervous~

And if Hellangel_zante sees this, then I wanna know: How was the Paris concert? How early did you get there? And stuff :D OR if I could have your MSN address we could talk. I'm excited and curious :O! Mine's sfkara3@cox.net if you see this and don't ignore it xD;

HMM I KNOW I HAD MORE TO SAY! But I have forgotten u_u

[16 Jan 2006|07:19pm]
[mood| loved]
[music| Psycho le cemu - Gekiai Merry-go-round]

Puffin's been really good~! I think I might full lease him soon. Tonight will be the first night I've spent at home since Thursday xDxD

....very tired though...

happy but also very sad D: [26 Dec 2005|12:14am]

I got mostly horse stuff, no jrock, but an ipod as well. But UGH LINKSTATIONNNNN WHY DID YOU DIE

On Christmas Day. We think he crashed. He had all my jrock stuff on it + ALL MY WRITINGS/rps + MY ART D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:



hold on to beautiful moments [24 Dec 2005|10:37pm]
[ mood | content ]

Merii merii merii Kurismasu! I'm actually kind of excited! I want to draw a Christmas picture, but...eh it's kind of late to START. Maybe I'll do a late Christmas sketch. I made oatmeal cookies for Puffin and gave them to him today. He was VERY happy about it...but Katie's horse Jewel turned them down??? Incredibly odd horse, she really is. They were GOOD oatmeal cookies :< I shared some with Puffin.

OH YEAH I took a lesson with Corinne since she was in town after FOREVER it seems like, even though it hasn't been overlong. It's like riding with Phyllis Dawson without the yelling <3<3 (Although I do love taking lessons from Phyllis) She got on Puffin and had him on the bit OMG I was so proud and happy to see him being good and so handsome! Then I got back on and she had me get him to do it too! (MAN if that was my only Christmas present I think I would be okay with that)


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today's odd day + those memes I promised [10 Nov 2005|06:17pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Well umm let’s see. I got my ears pierced again today, almost fainted as per usual. I think my subconscious is a psycho wimp. I mean wtf, it did NOT hurt that much. When I got my first holes it didn’t really hurt, but for about a year, whenever I took out the earrings/put them it, my vision’d black out and I’d almost faint, would have to lay on the bathroom floor for a minute or two. I recently figured out that if I make it hurt a little, I do better about it. (Nothing about it bothers me on a conscious level, soooo I really don’t know what’s up.) So today I got my second holes, stood up, tried to walk away, vision completely blacked, almost crumpled. I had to sit and do controlled breathing (haha, I know how to handle it -_-) for about ten minutes. Actually, it was around 1:30/2:00 and I hadn’t eaten and hadn’t drank much all day, so it was KIND of understandable but al;djajf it sucks. I ate Subway since it was next door; going outside in the chilly weather helped too.

Um but before that, I had a private lesson at the barn :o We did cross-country jumping, yeah. Puffin was wonderful, he loves it anyway. Apparently I asked for too advanced collection before a little jump, he got angry at me, bucked for about five strides as we were going away from the jump xD;;; I didn’t even realize how much I was making him hold together. We both just learned consistent collection, so it’s habitual for me, annoying for him at the low level we were jumping. So I had to let him stretch out and be a little messy or risk his wrath xD; It’s scary though, not being collected. I mean, at 2’, it’s not really a big deal how collected you are, but he gets excited and is very strong, and if I don’t collect, he zooms. But I suppose, thinking back, I did ask him for A LOT. O_o; But then we jumped a bigger fence, an average 2’7” coop, and he knocked his front legs because guess what, he hadn’t collected enough. Bwahaha lazy pony GOT IT D:

We also have steering issues on jump approaches. I consciously apply even leg pressure but he’s like RIGHT! LEFT! RIGHT! WHEE SIDEWAYS! for some retarded reason. and to make it worse, I have a bad memory on the specific jump I’m aiming for. At my last horse trial, I nearly jumped a set of Novice logs because it was more visible than my Baby Green hay bales D: (Novice: 3ft, Baby Green: 2ft) Haha, I was totally cool about it and everything. “Whoo that one looks fun :D *sees hay bales now* HOMG wrong jump!!! *emergency steering*” I really did want to jump those logs xD (So did Puffin)

I also switched Puffin’s dressage bit (a full cheek snaffle/French link) with Cherokee’s jumping bit to see how that worked out. Hot damn, it’s so wonderful, we actually turn/circle/halfhalt/do upward and downward transitions! I’m so happy that thing is dressage-legal u_u

Haha, I just printed off my dressage test (a wimpy Intro Test B), I’m so not ready for it to be this Saturday. It’s not like I don’t know the test, I’ve done it before, but our dressage is not top notch lately. Ahh well, Kathie said if we hold together okay in dressage, our jumping’ll make up for it.

I think I’m going to get my hair cut later tonight. As cockroach!ruki as the lady can do without a picture xD;; (*NOT printing anything off for her D:*)

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The pony herd! (imageheavycut) [30 Oct 2005|07:54pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Yaaay! My sister and I went out an took pictures of the majority of the lesson horse herd. Pictures under the cut, but there's 30 of them, so yeah. I sized them down and stuff, but that's still a lot:

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mostly horse crap again [27 Oct 2005|10:21pm]
[ mood | sore ]

I'm so bad about blogging xD; But homework, taking care of Puffin, back hurts for no good reason really badly and @#@%$^@

+sore back
+sore withers
+sore hocks
+sore underbelly
+sore/possibly infected feet

+20 pills a day, two doses (muscle relaxers)
+(no longer)gets betadine into the clefts of his heels to get rid of infection
+cortaflex supplement (today was DAY TWO, must remember *on schedule for 10 days and then switch dosage*)

+new saddle (now traded with Cassidy)
+new shoes (got them yesterday)
+new (a better one)saddle pad
+saddle generally placed farther back
+to be ridden walk/trot for about 15 min just about every day
+no spurs for a long time D:
+no jumping/cantering DDDD: (he tries to do both with me)

got/is getting
+got acupuncture
+was seen by two vets and a new farrier
+is getting a visit from a psychiatrist for horses :o
+now using a riser pad under saddle as well

And his winter hairclipthing grew back in already, wtf

I had a good lesson with Cherokee today though, since I am obviously not taking Puffin to Calais next weekend. Chero had his head down, stretching, bent and round to the inside, decent speed+energy yay. Never had him be so good. Even Natalie was complimenting us :D

Jumping him is so much more WORK that it used to be. xD; Collection, collection, more collection: on the long rein too. Since I have a bad habit of slowly taking in my reins, I just start out with next to nothing. Kathie said if we hold our dressage together, and I get him successfully over the first two or so cross country fences, we have a decent chance to walk away with a first place overall. :O! I'm not really expecting it but I'm hoping!

I had some j-tard crap to talk about but I've forgotten now xD;

...Icee is gone til Monday ;w; *sadness*

Cherokee is such a LAMEFAKER! He used to pretend-colic to avoid work, now he pretend-goes lame. He has a little hole in his white line (on his foot, ya), and so he's like "BUT MOMMY IT HURTS" until he sees the jumps in the ring. Then oh! actually maybe it doesn't hurt *that much* pleaseletsjumpitnowpleasepleasefastnowyay

!!!my back hurts so fucking much, I don't like it mommy T_T It's been about a week, hasn't gone away

I can't believe I can't do the phyllis dawson clinic this weekend, I love riding with her even if she screams at you. PUFFIN!!! If you weren't lame I wouldnt be horseless T___T *sad*

*actually ends it now*


why I shouldn't read magazines [06 Oct 2005|08:38pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I really thought I was okay with Puffin being 11. I really was. But then I read this article on how older horses can still perform and compete into their 20's and I started crying. Puffin's been lame, and I was so afraid he had hurt himself so it would be chronic for the rest of his (slightly older) life, ah I was so scared. I'm so deathly afraid of him getting old. I don't want it to ever happen. A lot of the barn's horses keep being used well into their twenties...but...they're not my horses.... Puffin's my first horse. I half-lease him, but he's still the first horse that's "mine." I try to take care of him as well as I can, even though I'm so stupid, and we fight far too much, but he's my pony. Ahh, crying again now. I wish he were five years younger or something. Then it would just be "lameness," not a real injury, in my mind. I want to see him so badly right now....


I'm ruki? wonderful... [04 Oct 2005|04:19pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I..had posted something the other day, right? I don't think it ever entered...

But anyway, oh well... I must look like a psycho to the people on my MSN list. My namething is "Mr Ruki (Reita is my Right-hand Man)"...but nnn it must look silly. It's because Kimber was having our little group be diru members, and while I was delighted at my assignment (toshiya), I said "Ruki!"..and we magically transferred to Gazette. Kimber's Aoi, Kai's Uruha (don't say she should be Kai, ahahah e_e), and Icee's Reita. Icee's MSN name is "Mr Reita (Ruki is my...Master)", so I suppose she looks sillier than me. Neither Kimber nor Kai had ever heard Gazette before this, either, so I suppose it was a good thing (they're both in love now). Hopefully Kai will be able to get on MSN tonight so we can have her change her namething n_n

Ahh I have so much English homework; I should stop putting stuff like this off late... I just hate it soso much! I also have chemistry and some more English...!

The best part about having jrock names is that when Icee and I comment on each other, it's kind of like we're flirting IN DISGUISE...which is particularly hilarious to me, because we don't really need to have jrock aliases to get around to that e_e rofl Would you believe we're really bad at hitting on each other though xD;

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I win [29 Sep 2005|08:22pm]
I think I just pwned this layout. aahahaha, not, it totally pwned me but I think it's tamed now. We'll see.

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